On a day to day basis it is inconceivable how much we use our brains. But, what if that brain begins to fail us? It's our mainframe, our computer system that regulates us as a whole. Many times, over the years I have joked about needing additional RAM or a faster processor, but truly, it becomes quite difficult when we are unable to process like we once did.
We all have been forgetful, because let's face it, we have too much on our plates. When the plate sits empty and the forgetfulness continues, it gives cause to worry. Those wires that have always connected so well to push the planning and problem solving and to regulate our breathing and heartbeat, causes much fear and anxiety when they don't.
I sit for hours on end because a message to my feet I cannot send
The memories carefully stored in my head are a jumble of wires I cannot bend
There are things I want to do and say but my brain tells me no way
How did I get like this? I ask God each day, make it better I always Pray
People around me I often forget, the faces not familiar and not legit
So instead, I watch TV and just sit
Time ticks on and stops for me or no one, a brain slowly emptying, is no fun.
Understanding is not there to seek, in my world you don’t want to peek.
I would cry, but my brain doesn’t remember how
Sadness sets in, deep inside, somewhere I don’t know
I pull up my blanket and cover my head
Hoping someday I’ll perish instead